My latest experiment!
A friend taught me this method of cooking cream pasta, just with fresh milk and cheese, instead of using cream. finally had a chance to try it tonight!
Tips:
fry ingredients with garlic before adding milk for better taste, esp mushroom
Add cheese only after u off the fire
Verdict:
This method of cooking cream pasta will have equal yummy creamy taste but less rich, 不那么腻。
x琬玲最爱看书，特别是这大姐送的会唱歌的书。她从连翻面都不会到现在还会按玩具书上的按钮！I am so proud of you!
PS: 琬玲啊，其实你知道你在读什么吗？
this Sunday is my birthday.
the dilemma came when friends suggest to celebrate birthday for me : should I go out and enjoy myself or choose an activity that wl can be present too.
It is not true that we'll have no life when babies come along. I fully understand that it is always my choice, it's just a qn of 'what I am prepared to sacrifice'?
I enjoy wl's company and will always miss her whenever she's not with me. however she's just a baby, she can only be active for 3-4hrs before she'll get cranky, she has to eat on time, slp on time and have chance to move ard. Home is the best place if I want wl to be ard. ktv, chill out with friends, shopping, movies at cinema, holidays are usually impossible activities.
fortunately, my in laws are very supportive, and wl is always safe and happy with them. over the yr, I have overcome some of these obstacles with their help:
1) went for midnight movies while wl slp soundly at tampines with her grandparents, 2) went holiday to beach chalet with in laws, enjoyed some 二人世界 when wl played and slp at her grandparents room. 3) had high tea with friends and even had a glass of beer with a friend once!
Now I am going to push further, using my birthday as an excuse, to challenge my limits. I have booked air ticket to Bangkok and will leave my baby for four nights! and I am trying a night to ktv with friends before my birthday. as I declare the plans, I am feeling intense guilt and excitement at the same time.
can I survive?
I tot I'd nv hear this again after I put hairclip for her... I was wrong..
the cashier asked, "girl ah? wow if not for the hairclip, i'd thought she's a boy! "
thank u, hairclip.
Now that wl is going 8mths, happy to eat solids, my supply is not abundant, plus I hate pumping, the question come: when do I want to stop breastfeed her?
Breastfeeding is easy. I dun have to worry if wl is eating the correct or enough food. When she wakes up in the middle of night I dun have to boil water, make milk, feed and wash bottle.
I hope to breastfeed her till she's 1 yr old, or at least till she's able to sleep thru the night.
So, its Just a few more months of pumping milk! Jia You!!!
"我国的乒乓球选手进了半决赛！“
“还不是中国人？有什么值得骄傲的？“
四年一度的Olympic已揭开序幕。我关心的从不是新加坡得了几面奖牌,甚至有谁代表什么我也没关心过 。我注意的是开幕典礼有多精彩，中国怎么一下子可以有那么多金牌，看比赛也只是挑有趣的来看。要支持我国选手从来想都没想过。一直没发现直到听到以上的谈话。
新加坡小，所以人口少，相对的人才也少。依靠外来人才在国际竞争强烈的舞台占一席之地是政府多年的政策。久而久之代表新加坡的运动健儿几乎都是外来人才。最初可以有机会在大比赛的决赛看到新加坡国旗，我是很兴奋的。可是后来这种现象越频繁，不知怎么就是骄傲不起来 。
“没办法啊，新加坡不够人才啊“
“难道你家想要有个会弹琴的小孩就该去国外领养个很厉害弹琴的小孩？有节日，有朋友到就让收养的小孩表演,不管自己的小孩？我到你家,琬玲弹得再怎么不好我也只要听她弹！“
在这里，我想分享最近听到让我很震撼的故事。有人读中学时，打羽球很厉害，所以进了校队。可是中学四年竟然一次比赛的机会也没有。中一时比赛由学长出赛，这理所当然。到他升上中二时，可以有机会可以代表学校比赛了，可是学校为了要赢，从印尼‘引进‘了一批人才。即使他是新来的同学的学长，接下来的中学羽球生涯里他只有坐冷板凳的份。代表学校比赛的位置被取代，没有比赛战绩，被重点培训的机会就不会有，成为羽球界的巨星当然也就不可能了。新加坡虽然小，人口也不多，可是像这样的例子有多少呢？有几个小孩的梦想因为大人们只想‘赢‘而破灭呢？
如果外来人才可以让整个新加坡变得更好，是好事。可是当变得更好的过程是牺牲自己人，得到的只是光鲜的外表，而不是实质的变好，这样真的好吗？
凡事都是越依赖就越需要：越依靠谎言就越需要撒另个谎来圆谎，越依靠手段取得成功就越需要手段来维持成功。 走捷径而没有培养实力的成功会持久吗？
今晚格格很乖。喝完奶，眼睛仍睁得大大的。放她在她的床上后，开着她的星星摇篮电影，我只是安静地坐在她的床边。她吸着她的睡觉奶嘴，翻了几下身，就合上眼睛尝试入眠。虽然她还是要我在身边，但这样已经是很大的进步了！
晚安！
我今天去剪头发。考试后总想要犒赏自己。所以下班后随便选了一间理发院去理发 。
理发有时是很享受的，只要理发师不会太吵。在理发院洗头，他们总是搓搓揉揉洗每一寸的头皮。今天帮我洗头的小姐就洗了至少15分钟吧。。。
在吹干头发时，我突然想起ah ma 已经十年没有陪我去剪头发了。小时候都是ah ma 决定我应该剪什么发型，从中学时候开始我想要自己决定要留怎样的发型，甚至有一段时候还是自己剪自己的头发 。匆匆十年过了，现在去剪头发理发师问我要怎么剪，我的答案只是“随便“或“不知道,修短就好“。是因为相信专业还是年纪大了没有了自己的想法？不知道，只是在理发师细心地剪我的头发时，我顺便打了个盹，然后上了一堂怎么吹我的头发的课，付了钱后，带着略修剪过的头发和好了一点的心情离开。
前些日子我生病了而且是在琬玲生病时病倒的。生病最痛苦的不是全身发冷酸痛或高烧不退，而是无法好好照顾琬玲。当她嚷着要玩耍，我只想盖着被出汗睡觉。当她哭着要喝奶，我四肢无力精神恍惚。
我很佩服那些无私奉献的妈妈们，她们有源源不绝的爱可以给她们的孩子。她们可以把孩子放在比任何人包括自己，任何事还要重要的位子。我无法做到 。
我无法好好兼顾工作和照顾她。我无法一天工作后一到家就要照料她冲凉睡觉 。心情糟糕的时候，我没有办法真心地开心地唱歌说故事给她听 。我无法在她生病时无微不至地照顾她 。
我这样算不称职的妈妈吗？
我只知道，我必须比以前更爱自己，更让自己是个健康开心的人，我才能完完全全给她爱 。
A thought is a powerful thing. Our actions move in the direction of our dominant thought, whether consciously or unconsciously.
我认识一个人，很担心会与丈夫离婚，因为报张报道离婚率越来越高。所以她想方设法想要保护她的婚姻：和丈夫形影不离，计划共同目标，打造完美将来。。。
也许人脑真的无法处理负面的想法，我们最害怕的事总会成真, 有一天竟然有离开她丈夫的念头！一个负面的念头，在她思维中生根滋长，竟威胁了她一生最想保护的东西！
Be careful of what you think about, because you are what you think.
My new attempt on Aglio Olio!
I was tasked to cook lunch for Xu Family last Saturday, but it was a lazy Saturday rainy morning, so I wanted to make something easy. Hence, I got all the ingredients at NTUC@ tampines mall after McDonald breakfast.
I simply need to cut the Ham and mushroom into slices and throw all the ingredients together into the pot and fry, no need to de-shell prawns or marinate chicken whatsoever! lunch was prepared in less than half hr. (used honey baked ham and 3-in-1 mushroom pack from NTuC: white & black button and one Portbello)
I added chilli padi this time round. tips for ppl who love spicy food: use small fire to cook, 煸, garlic and chilli padi for some time, before garlic is burnt. your noodles will be more fragrant and spicy. If u can't really take spicy food, remove all seeds wash the chilli thoroughly, add at the end for garnishing only.
To increase the aesthetic look and a bit of 'nutrition', I added wild rocket salad on top of the pasta.
How I make the salad:
A box of wild rocket from NTUC, and japanese sesame salad dressing, sprinkle some parmesan cheese over.
looks yummy right? But sad to say, it doesn't taste as good as it looks. I took a shortcut to cook for everyone at the same time, the noodles became too dry, oil not enough, garlic not enough and the ingredients were not well mixed. :(
It is still wise to cook aglio olio in small portion, maybe for 1 or 2 person if you are an inexperienced cook like myself.
My first purchase on groupon: 6 session of yoga at Real Yoga
Went for my first session yesterday, lesson recommended by dajie: Body Opening!
Had a very bad first impression of Real Yoga. First of all, the consultant I was supposed to meet wasn't around. Then I was just shown to the changing room without much orientation of the whole place. I had to return to the changing room twice, first to put my slippers in the changing room as shoes are not allowed in the studio and there's no place to leave our shoes outside studio (I don't really like the idea of walking barefooted from the changing room to the studio, not as if they had made effort to keep the floor clean ), second time to put HP in locker.as we're not allowed to use hp in studio. shouldn't they let me know during the 'orientation' if they have so many house rules?
I find the place rather small and cramp, it's almost impossible to be able to reach for my things in locker with ppl changing in the area and putting things in their locker etc . And they don't have toilet! To use the toilet( I only found out after the class) we have to walk out of the premise, the shopping centre toilet with only three cubicle.
The yoga mat were placed very neatly and packed in the studio. When I stepped into the studio the first thing I noticed is a stench of smell, maybe from sweat on the mat( probably they were nv cleaned as the mats are always on the floor) or maybe its feet smell plus the poor ventilation of the room... this is something I had never experience in Fitness First or California Fitness...
The only good thing about Real Yoga is probably their lesson/instructor. At least the yoga positions were taught on greater detail so we could do it correctly.
I know it's a bit disgusting, but I am too proud a parent not to share....
Bought this potty last week at taka baby fair, though it wasnt successful on the first day of trying, fortunately or unfortunately, she shits at least three times a day, so i have many chance to try again. I was successful to collect WL's shit the very next day!
however it didn't turn out to be what I expected. It's more mess and cleaning up. Shitting in diaper is just remove dirty diaper, wipe backside clean, wear new diapers. Shitting in potty means preparing potty.and a basin of warm water before she wants to shit, shit in potty, clean the bottom in basin of warm water, wipe bottom clean, wear new diapers, clean the basin and potty, PLUS wash clothes, linen, floor or anything else that get soiled in the process..
Nevertheless I still must persevere for her good in the future.
I made this aglio olio with happycall, and it taste great!
Been feeling down these few days, as I start to question myself, doubt myself if I am a good mother.
Wl is no longer the little baby who just need to eat and sleep. She needs to be entertained, she needs interaction, she needs simulation, so she could grow intellectually. Therefore I need to sing songs, play games, be very high 'I' and high energy, which I'm afraid I couldn't do it.
Good food makes me happy! And I am happy that I have happycall!
你们想念我吗？好久没更新博客了！最近有点忙，每天都好累。
可是也不知道在忙什么。。。
我没追连续剧，没玩电脑，游戏也玩的很少。
我到底在忙什么我也不知道。
早上7点起身，pump milk, 梳洗吃早饭, 8点带格格散步，9点帮格格冲凉，10点喂她哄她睡觉，早上还没过，我就已经累得想睡一整天了 。。。
也许要安排很多事才能做更多事吧。有时候就是越闲时间过得越快，人也越没精神 。
我不应该打开Facebook 来读的。几乎所有人都在脸书上分享今天收到或送出什么离去，去哪庆祝。
我却在抱着格格喂奶，打嗝，又喂奶地过情人节的最后几个小时。
人奶是我给格格的情人节礼物,这是我能给她最实际的礼物。她也很贴心地努力让我减肥。她应该是知道我喂越多就可以消耗越多卡路里吧！所以一直哭着，不停地要求我给她更多礼物。
（P.S 附上格格近照，也是我希望她现在是的那个样子）
从4点就翻来覆去无法入眠 。也许是因为肚子饿，也许是不习惯听到那么多打呼声，也许是这两个星期要和琬玲住在xl父母家有些不习惯。。。
躺在床上读了整个星期的新闻。
写了琬玲日常作息和习惯。
一转眼就快7点了。
顺便上传琬玲近照！
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| Morning: Irregular contraction |
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| Korean BBQ! |
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| My favorite fruit in heart shape! |
Had a warm shower and checked some email. As this is the first time, I am not sure how painful is the real thing, I convinced XL to go to KKH delivery suite Again to check.I am admitted
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| A helpful nurse helped me take this |
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| Me enjoying the first meal at KKH. Soup is really quite nice |
By about 9am, I am fully dilated. Midwife taught me how to push correctly, I am lucky to be able to feel enough to push (without feeling pain, and no need for forceps etc!) and by that time baby's hair can be seen already. When Dr Tan arrived, I pushed for a few minutes and she is out!Side effects of epidural I had:
琬玲一天天长大，眼看就快一个月了。
昨天她异常地乖：很准时的每两小时起来喝奶，喝完就睡觉。应该是周末累坏了吧。如果可以每天这样那该多好。可是这是不可能的。其实也不能一直这样。她会长大的。
最近发现她已经会听抱她的人说话。看到她的成长，我有些开心，有些担心。
最近她喝奶的时间越来越久，也越来越频繁。我知道她越大就需要喝越多。我担心会不会有一天会供不应求？有时候我真的想放个假 ，可是她不能不吃啊！我才深深体会到为人父母是终身的职业，没有假期，不能休息。
所以必须有更多的耐性，更强的意志力！
最近部长薪水调整在网络上闹得沸沸扬扬。很多人拿外国的报道和国内的对比。当然国内报道的大部分都是些好话让人食之无味。国外的很多都是尖酸刻薄带点讽刺让人读后捧腹大笑。
去年大选前，我是个无知的新加坡人，根本不知道一个普通部长薪水竟比美国总统多。我能理解高薪养廉的逻辑，但人都是拥有越多就越贪心的啊，不是吗？
本地报道大部分都说部长减薪，国人至少觉得这改变的大方向是对的，是国人乐见的。套我读到的一份国外报道所说：“it's a democracy victory -the Singapore way"。即使有些部长的年薪是有些新加坡人几辈子也无法存到，部长最低薪资仍然比美国总统多。
我想很多外国记者知道许多新加坡人对政府不满是乐观其成的。难得‘任劳任怨‘的乖乖新加坡人愿意表示一些不满，尽管即使我们没吭声他们也能大做文章。
那么部长的薪水到底和不合理呢？海峡时报有篇追溯整个部长薪金调整历史的报道。从1980年代的几千，部长薪水可是几倍几倍的翻涨（当然中间也有一些随着经济衰弱调低的时候）到今日的每月几十万。
普通人的薪水哪会几年就有几千块的加薪啊？所有的部长不当部长真的能在private sector 找到每月几十万的薪金的工作吗？管理小小的新加坡真有比美国复杂吗？这些都是很多人会问的问题。
更何况近日频频发生淹水，交通等问题，不是部长没及时妥当处理， 就是发表一些有欠考虑的话，增加人民的不满。让人怀疑高薪养廉也是不是养了些草包？
可是执政党他们说得也没错啊，若是部长薪金不是那么可观，过去几十年真会有那么多人愿意参政？可不见得其他国家有这样的问题啊。那新加坡人怎么会那么市侩呢？
是我们真的缺乏人才，还是社会风气出了问题？是我国的教育有问题吗，所以培育的人才都只会向钱看齐？还是媒体的保守让国人只有单一思考方式，自然对复杂的政治毫无兴趣？还是国泰民安当然就没有奉献，或改善人民生活的欲望？
问题追根究底其实像‘先有鸡还是先有蛋‘一样难以理清。只是现在因为网际网络，媒体变得较为开放。年轻一辈开始积极讨论时事。这算是好事。不满声浪会成为推动利于人民政策的力量。我个人是很开心做月时有那么多报道可以读，可以供思考。但我不希望这些讨论会有一天演变成政治不稳定，毕竟新加坡能繁荣发展到今日很大部分原因也是因为我们的政治稳定。我很自私的，个人生存是比虚无缥缈的国家理想重要的。
我开始怀念被被单盖着的温暖， 怀念早上去咖啡店吃早餐的热闹，怀念可以到处逛的自在。。。
怀疑这是因为我已看完了两部连续剧不知道现在可以看什么的关系。。。
只剩大概两星期。。。
发现可以一直看着你也不觉厌倦。
你的一频一笑，一皱眉一嘟嘴我都百看不厌。偶尔想你的牙齿几时会长，一会儿又想你长大后会变成什么样，我会是个好妈妈吗，你会是个乖孩子吗？看着你胡思乱想一天就过去了。
今日你半月大，我的做月也做了一半。还好我是宅女，爱待在家里。过的很开心。也开始担心没有陪月阿姨后我该怎么生存。。。。
今早发现，手机里竟已有四十几张琬玲的照片！
琬玲，琬玲。。。其实一开始觉得这名字很怪，可是也说不上来为什么。算命算的名字可以人模人样实属不易了，所以当时就勉强答应了。如今叫着叫着也都习惯了，开始不别扭了。甚至有些爱这名字。是爱屋及乌吗？
