38 weeks

It's officially 38 weeks!

I am now on my way to the regular gynae visit.

"Why are you still here at office?"
"Are you excited?"

These are the two most common questions I have to answer these few days.

I am not in labor, I have to walk around more often than just resting at home, I have work to do, it is safer to be in office with people around than to be at home alone, Office is nearer to KK than bedok... are all the answers I have for the 1st question. The truth is, i really don't know what else i can do, should do besides go office and finish my paperwork...

I am ok, in fact feeling much better this week, a bit in holiday mood. I feel more energetic, although still feel tired at the end of the day. i feel more calm and relaxed than excited. sometimes i may feel scared, worried about the delivery pain, and wonder if i can cope well after baby is born. but these feelings usually come and go, most of the time, I'd just feel normal. I will try to mentally prepare myself for the delivery, try to read more about taking care of babies when I have nothing else to do. I have even better appetite now, and i am indulging myself with all the nice food I like.

Every child is a gift

I just met a distant relative and had a small chat with her. She proudly showed me her autistic younger son's "kindergarten" graduation day photos. Her face beamed with joy while describing how his son got lost into his own world while performing halfway. She is just like any other mother with 'normal' child, proud of her own son. That's why I decided to write something about this...

Recently, a friend did the test for down syndrome for her babies, result wasn't too favourable. She decided not to do any further tests to confirm the result. She felt that all kids are God's gift, whether they are normal or not, she will keep her children. I was impressed by her courage and determination when she told me her decision, at the same time I wonder if she really understood the real implication of raising kids with down syndrome. Anyway, the test is usually not accurate so I thought it's more important to give her support as a friend, than to scare or upset her with these...

I have a brother who is different, and a mum who specialise in treating children with special needs. Seeing so many kids who are different from 'normal', I grow up believing if we knew these children will face with so many challenges in life, and not only their parents but also their whole family have to go through so much difficult times, if we can predict disabilities, maybe it is a better idea not to bring these children to this world to suffer.

However, to certain extent, what my friend said is true too; every child is a miracle, a god's gift. It is cruel to end a little life before it begins. Probably, it is not up to us to decide what kind of life the child deserve, or we deserve. Even though my heart will still twinge whenever my brother share with me his difficulties, but I am always proud of him, love him and glad that I have him as my brother.

But the question is, I am already not sure if I can cope with bringing up a normal kid. like handle the crying and  feeding etc, if my baby needs special attention and care, do I really have the courage, the patience and love to go through the special journey with her?

It's going to be the end of 2nd week...

悉尼是否是天气晴朗?
这里天天都下雨乌云密布让人心情无法好起来。

时差让我们无法上网聊天，只能偶尔互道晚安...
现在也只能希望你能快点平安回来。

我28了

在我28岁的第一个早上，我5点多就醒来了。这也许是27和28最大的不同吧。 我希望bb可以成为像周慧敏一样优雅又漂亮的女生 希望爸爸妈妈，公公婆婆都能健康长寿 希望向岭能够多运动，早睡早起 其实没有什么比快乐更重要的，希望所有朋友都会快乐幸福!

My secret plan

tmr is XL's bday. i am trying to secretly plan some surprises.

I had given him his present many weeks ago before our trip to Thailand, a nike bag.
We had cut his bday cake with his family last sat.
The known plan is to have lunch tog near his office tmr, to use his voucher at a restuarant.
All the above are boring and uneventful celebration which are totally unacceptable.

My actual plan:

1) to buy a Koi bubble tea for him before the boring lunch date. He had never tried Koi before!
2) lunch to utilise vouchers...
3) Make Sukiyaki for dinner!

Then again, after looking at my written plan, it seems boring too... eat n eat n eat.... haiz.. maybe i should think of something interesting to do.....

NOTE: This was written last mth but I forgot to publish it.. :p

updates

I have been lazy with my blog recently... Many things, yet not much had happened..

1) I have a nephew! cried while I brush my teeth after I read the msg from dajie that Baby L came to this world. After almost 2 days of waiting in hospital, he is finally here in this world! It felt like miracle..

2) I am now in the final trimester. It felt strange to see my fingers and feet got swollen, and tummy getting bigger and bigger everyday. I think I will miss baby not being inside me. She seems to be a part of me already. Yet, I still cant get used to the discomfort, and pain I am going through everyday...

3) seeing dajie in her confinement, I tried very hard to mentally prepare myself for it too. I cant imagine myself tolerating not washing hair for days, not able to blow fan, and most importantly taking care of a small baby...

Japan trip part 3 - Fukushima

Ok, this section is on our trip to Iizakao Onsen in Fukushima. Our favorite part of our Japan trip. We took a local train to the onsen, then we were welcome by the tranquility at the riverside. Xl was fascinated by the ducks in the river, as it reminds him of his fav song "寒鸭戏水”。

The local train

寒鸭戏水

 

And here, we fulfilled our dream to be in the traditional Japanese Onsen Inn.

Personalised welcome message board at the inn

And traditional Japanese dinner in our tatami room. Just like those in 'Japan Hour'

We found an interesting beer- Sapporo+Royce: Chocolate Beer in the convenience store here. Beer that smells like choc, taste like Sapporo beer

 

 This is a lovely town. All houses have nicely trimmed garden. The hotspring here is awesome. We had wonderful time enjoying the scenery, all the yummy traditional meals.I hope it is still around now...