How l hope l can spend my weekends.

Wake up at 7am, and think it's just 7am and sleep some more, cuddle a bit with hubby..
Finally open my eyes at 10am, browse my facebook and play Candycrush till I finish all my lives on my comfy bed..
Finally jump off bed feeling happy and excited, then skipped to the hippest cafe in town for a cool brunch.
Enjoy pretty food and latte-art Coffee while I try to take yummy looking food to post on my instagram , then enjoy best friends' company at the cafe, sharing the latest gossips.
It is a great day with nice weather, go swimming with hubby before dinner.
It's dinner time with family. Weekend is best with home cooked food (cooked by my mummy)
TV time with family in the evening.
9pm, go late nightmovie With my lovely hubby.
Ends the day with supper at the market, what is weekend without satay / fried hokken mee or Punggol nasi lemaK ?

How l actually spend my weekend

6am: Woke up by MM, probably the third time since last night? I can't really remember . Dream feed= l feed mm in my dreams. (or while sleepwalking)
7am: Woke up again because gg cry coz she dun see me lying beside her when she peep in her sleep. Couldn't figure out how she manage to do that...
7.30am: finally comforted gg and get ready for breakfast.
8am: Breakfast is noodle soup share with gg. Din really know how 'it taste like Or remember if I did eat anything, because my focus is to feed gg her noodles and feed mm cereal at The same time. "Brain rules' is right, our brain is not wired to multitask.
9am: Running after naked gg to go into toilet for shower.
10.30am: Finally both princesses are cleaned and dressed. I try to shower quickly and get ready to go out for lunch. No time to dress up, I think I look Ok la, most importantly top is nursing accessible, whole day outside dunno when and where have to feed MM. (It's lunch time already?!?)
1130am: We are early for friends lunch gathering (actually is my friends are late for our brunch gathering) , so brought gg to play at the mall's children play area. In between, checked out the new malls' nursing room which is elephant big, and try to nurse fussy mm.....
1 pm: when gg is finally warmed up to play at the new playground, Our friends arrived for lunch ( or breakfast for my friends)
2.30pm: managed to survive lunch with mm crying and sleeping intermittently ,  friends have not seen each other for a long time so we decide to have Some coffee and dessert to catchup some more.
3pm: finally settled down at a new hipster cafe with young people, MM started to be cranky and husband need to carry her walk ard the mall.
3.30pm It's gg turn to be cranky because she missed her usual nap time which is 2 and half hours ago.
4pm hastily ended coffee session and apologized to friends for my cranky babies. We parted and promised to meet again real soon. (which probably will not happen anytime soon unless we all forget abt today's drama )
5pm: still in car because both kids are sleeping like angels in their car seat.
6.30pm: At parents home for dinner. It's a blessing to have other family members to entertain gg and carry mm.
8pm: Shower both kids and get ready to go home.
9pm: Home sweet home. Can't wait to go to my comfy bed. But gg refused to sleep. Luckily mm feel asleep In her car seat whole travelling home.
10pm: After acceding to gg countless request such as "l want milk" "No, I want Milk in hello kitty bottle" "I want星星＂ ( the graduate puff) , "l want Dora" (Watch her favorite cartoon Dora)  etc.
11pm: (or so) I am already asleep before gg sleep. Thank goodness the husband is awake to entertain her)
12pm: (or so) Mm crying for milk... it's another day already....

disclaimer: Above is probably an exagerated illustration of some of the worst seenario I had during weekend, which happens rather frequently. 

Parenting comes with challenges and sacrifices. Though endless and repeating drama makes me feel exhausted most of the time. nothing can replace the joy of seeing the girls smile , learning new things and growing up.

文化遗产

最近有个展览，主题是"消失的华校，国家永远的资产"。有位我认识的华文老师积极向周围的朋友宣扬，顺便炫耀她的母校有多少杰出人才。我听了嗤之以鼻。

几个月前我还问那位老师，你怎么不和你的孙子说方言呢，好让你的孙子也会说方言?她那时的回答是，"方言没有任何价值，学来做什么?" 我怎么也没想到华文老师会对方言有这样的评价，可我也不会说方言所以也不好意说什么只能默默换话题。几个月后说方言没有任何价值的人竟然跟我说消失的华校是国家的资产???

1) 消失的东西已经不存在了，还能称上是资产?
2) 还没消失的文化都被称为没有价值，已经消失的东西你说是资产?!
3) 如今被当成资产的华校不就是和方言一样，以让国家经济繁荣为由喝令被铲除的吗?

也许被你因以为傲的所谓的资产的是那些在各个领域获得成就的校友，而不是华人五千年的文化遗产，不是那些热血沸腾的知识分子所奋斗的新世界，不是那些默默耕耘的小人物为更美好生活团结一起的勇气与良心 。

Being a cow

The thing I hate most about being a mum who choose to breastfeed my baby is I have to pump milk!

One hr every 3-4hr a day= 6hr a day spend to get the milk out, almost equal to the time I slp a day! And the wOrse thing is,  I spend so much time a day only able to keep up with the demand.... I feel like a cow!

I need more milk to be milked out to go holiday! !!!! (And still need to milk when I am on holiday! )

The day has come

This is it, the day we have been waiting for, the maid is here, or will be here.

At this juncture, I dun even know how to pronounce her name... and this person, pray that she'll be a good person, will be staying at our house rather permanently. Everything will be different from now on.

Am I prepared for it?

Language barrier
I have downloaded the app for translation. Its pretty amazing, u can just speak to it and it'll translate it to the language you selected.

Work schedule
All planned out in my notebook, temporary timetable drawn too.

Working environment
Camera not installed yet, but should be ok ... do it b4 xl go overseas next mth.
Her room not ready too, guess have to ask her pack up a bit, maybe buy bed tog with us after tt....

Ok I guess I am not too ready....

OMG!

Update: The previous maid had to be sent home as she did not pass her medical examination (sort of). We finally chose again... Waiting again...
As of 23 August

How did "Let it go" from frozen saved me

I watched "Frozen" in cinema theatre last year december, I was pregnant then.  I enjoyed the movie and really love the songs.  But the song "Let it go " only 'hit' me recently (maybe when mm is abt 2 or 3mth old?) after it went viral after its win at Oscars.

Almost every kids know how to sing the song now, even wl can sing the whole song with actions and everything. But actually some parts of the lyrics is not very typical kind of things u would like ur kids to learn , like "I don't care,  what they're going to say" or "turn away and slam the door" or "no right no wrong no rules for me" ... but that's the point; elsa's tried to be this perfect girl all her life,  she now wants to be free from all the restrictions and be who she wants to be,  and "let it go"! 

I was pretty stressed up that time, trying to be the perfect mum. I want to be able to provide my kids with the best, and also do my best in my job. However, I realised I can't. It is depressing and devastating. After listening to that song over and over, "let it go, let it go" starts to open up my mind.

It doesn't help to just "let it go" though. Ariendelle is still in deep deep snow when Elsa "let it go". The only difference is Elsa became a different person, a happier person. Not bad for a start. At least her closed one, Anna, knew her problem. It is only when our loved ones know what's wrong with us, then they will be able to help us and reach out to us. Shielding them from our problems will not protect them, it will only build up a wall between us.

So "let it go" and tell your loved ones ur vulnerability, and let true love thaw away your frozen heart. (If u happen to freeze ur heart while pretending to be strong) ;)

Finally , "lip stick" that I like

Ok, it's not really lipstick, it's actually call a balm stain

Its Revlon 'just bitten kissable balm stain'

I usually dun put lip stick becoz most of the time they feel sticky and heavy, uncomfortable. I prefer lipbalm coz they are more moisturising and more comfortable,  though some are greasy and definitely not lasting. So for most of the time, I leave my lips bare, or at most I'll just apply some lip gloss... until I found this

It's a lip balm with color, so unlike lipstick which usually feels heavy, it feels like lip balm light and not that sticky, there is also a slight mint taste.. yet, unlike most lip balm, the color stays and shows very well and is not greasy! Super love!

不可以

不可以恨一个人
我一直告诉自己
不值得，不应该，也不需要

可是

怎么会有那么令人讨厌的人?

自私自利
固执偏见
不通情达理
厚脸皮
武断
市侩
伪善
幼稚
卑鄙
爱耍心机
专横霸道
无法沟通

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