The case against breastfeeding

Wrote a super long post last night on fb...  was probably too tired and not thinking straight.. but here it is: 


https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2009/04/the-case-against-breast-feeding/307311/


While reading through this long article late at night, baby cried. His daddy, just beside him, merely made a few "shh shh shh" sound, while his eyes and hands glued to his handphone playing his mobile game. I jumped out of the couch across the room to my baby (note my), feeling anger boiling inside me as i get on to my mummy duties.

Yes, i feel trapped, like how the article describes, i feel i am chained to the pump and imprisoned by the feeding schedule. And its true that exclusively breastfeeding makes me angry lots of time. (Esp when like what had just happened 😒)

Thats the main reason why i say, i feel like quitting everyday. xl say, i do have a choice. But i am still hanging on to "breastfeed as long as i can", and i dont really know why.

Maybe its the bonding with baby while feeding? Maybe I'm addicted to the skin to skin closeness, and his baby smell as we cuddle... they say, treasure it when we can, coz when kids grow up they will not want to be close to us anymore...

Maybe its the soliditary me time i am privileged to have when i breastfeed, latch or pump alike. Its really nice to be able to escape into my room, to pump or to feed, when the girls are fighting or throwing tantrum outside. Its also really nice to take a break in between work to pump, and play my mobile games or watch some show, some things i couldnt really do at any other time.

Maybe its the convenience to be able to latch anywhere.. ya, contradicting i know. Its freedom to go anywhere i want with baby, but trapped with him as well.

Maybe i am really brainwashed by all the "research" and "parental advice", that "breast is best". Although i really take it easy this time round.. i have already 看开 after my 2nd, i am mentally prepared to give formula if need to.. but ego will always be stroked if i am able to proudly declare "ya, my baby is exclusively breastfed" 😏

So, ya... here i am, like most female, who always contradict themselves, i hate to breastfeed but I'm gonna do it as long as i can..

Years later, when Facebook reminds me of this ridiculously long post i made at 1am... i may be laughing at myself..silly me, why i didnt sleep when i am already so sleep deprived.

#breastfeedingmakesmemad